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[barber]

Mission_bug

Sorry to hear about your health condition. So little we know about our neighbor and his difficulties!
I wish you all the best and let us hope you get the best treatment for the symptoms,
you are needed here.

Cheers
Barber

[cgagan]

Warmest wishes for a stable recovery Pete!

[Mission_bug]

Thank you very much guys for the best wishes, they are really appreciated.

Unfortunately there is no fix, it is what they describe as "Multiple Pathology", a number of issues all tugging and aggravating each other, movement of fingers and arms in certain ways means the brain picks up the pain caused by damaged tendons, bicep and nerves up through the arms, across the shoulders and into the cervical spine and finally to the head.  Many injections have been tried in the shoulders and one in the neck that do give some relief for a few months, however, these are only temporary, designed to help relieve some of the inflammation, unfortunately they themselves cause damage to tendons so have to be used sparingly so it is up to the pills to take the edge off the pain and myself to manage the pain which is why I only do things for short periods to save increasing the pain too much.

The surgeons are reluctant to operate as they tell me certain procedures are no longer undertaken because most patients still experience the pain afterwards.

Never have quite got my head around that one but it is what it is I suppose so stuck with the condition I am.

I did have one operation in 2013/14 forget exactly, that is still showing signs of distress, however, the surgeon does not wish to re-visit it as he felt it might actually make things worse than better so opted to leave as is, I do not have a good arm, one is much worse than the other though but the combination of issues builds pain very quickly when for instance I type as I use both arms together so cannot do those kind of things for long.


Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.

[Mission_bug]

Apologies for being a softie baby guys, I am usually more stoic, guess the lockdown is having its way with me stuck here in my little flat on my own, I understand now what being in prison must be like.

I have been out of work now for five years or so, the company paid a health benefit for some of the time, originally full pay but moving to part pay, sadly it became obvious there would be no improvement so my employment was terminated eventually and now I have to do battle with our benefit system.

Never have I known so much misery and death to follow in the wake of any benefit initiative as there has been with what we are currently using, the instigators should be tried for crimes against humanity for the suffering it has caused in the last seven/eight years or so.
The very poorest are denied adequate help and what is forthcoming is only possible with a very difficult application process that leaves many confused, not only that but people like me now fifty eight years old and with chronic pain who have contributed all our working lives are treated no better, deemed able to do some kind of work by the system, and forced to appear before the courts if we feel we have been improperly assessed, the health questionnaire is a farce.

Thankfully the tribunal agreed with me when I last appeared before them, over the phone sadly due to the pandemic, not sure where that leaves me long term but for the moment I still have a roof over my head.
I think it fair to say that any occupational health professional would be unwilling to recommend me to any potential employer, I can barely do some things for forty five minutes, how on earth would I be able to contribute anything meaningful over what is at the very least a eight hour day, mine used to stretch to nine/ten and then there is traveling there and back, for sure I would be more a burden than a help.

Sorry guys, just felt a need to vent, you all have your own problems without me adding to them, I will try to stop feeling sorry for myself and pick up on my project again tomorrow honest.

Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.

[ben_wh]

Pete,

Sorry to hear about your health problem and the issue of navigating the benefit system.

It is sad that many bureaucracies today are designed for tracking and control, with much thought into process and efficiency but little on human dignity.

Your work has benefited so many of us here, and we truly appreciate it.  Your health has to come first though, so don't stress yourself for your projects.

Yes, the lockdown is getting to most of us, but works from artists like yourself and the sharing of thoughts in communities like this one have helped alleviate it.

Please take care and stay safe,

 

[Mission_bug]

Hello ben_wh, thank you very much for the kind words and support, really appreciated.

It seems even after forty or so years in the workplace we cannot be left in peace to suffer the pain it caused, still governments want a piece of you even when you are FU.B.A.R.

Sadly all around us we can see so much pain and misery from disease and much worse illness than mine, it is just from a personal perspective your own problems take on a far greater significance because it is you who must bear it, in many ways I should be thankful I am not one of those cancer patients having operations cancelled or that I am one of those Doctors and nurses who have had to toil long strenuous hours battling to keep people alive through so much this year.

From a work perspective I have worked with spray equipment in industry and can testify to the shear exhaustion ten or twelve hour days dressed in protective gear has on your will and the bodies ability to function, it is exhausting, at least I did not have human beings relying on me to save their lives at the time so I guess my problems really do pale into insignificance when compared to all that the world around me has to contend with.


Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.

[ben_wh]

Pete,

We as a community may not be able to help directly ease your physical pain, but we can at least hope to help lessen your mental burden by listening.

I am encouraged by your positive perspective, and your ability to channel your energy towards creative projects. 

I hope that the issue with the government stabilizes and that your pain eases up soon.   Don't give up - there may be other treatment options that can help.

Please take care,
 

[Mission_bug]

Hello again ben_wh, yes, I think sometimes we just have to get things out of our system, glad you guys do not mind putting up with my scribblings, it is nice to know folks are out there even in these times where it always seems we are on our own.

I have been out of sorts this last week or so, I blame it on the flu jab that Dr Powis insisted I have, sure he won't mind me blaming him if it keeps the hospital free of me right now, those poor people have had to suffer me for the last seven years or so, sure they will be glad to see the back of me.

You will be happy to know I actually took up the Thorneycroft again, I had missed a little plaque on the alternator/generator thingy so it got done, later in the day I also finished mapping the box, that will hopefully get painted tomorrow.

Anyway, back on track, the Lysander, when I did this set of skins I tried to find some information that might indicate the Russians had maybe used a few, either captured from Finland or maybe that had found their way by lend lease, nothing though sadly but the decals do work on this model so at least if someone wanted to make some kind of what if scenario it is possible to add Soviet stars.   If information is forthcoming I will update what is already there and if possible add anything new if any of you guys has further references to what I have, also if anyone wants a what if then I am up for it, just drop a line here and I will see what I can come up with.

Again, thank you very much guys for the support, really appreciated.

Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.

[HaFu1939]

Hello Pete, I’ve read in this thread a bit… Knowing a little about what you described, these feelings of crippling and uncertainty about future existence… even now I still believe, there are some happy-endings in this world… wishing you there is one for you too. In the meantime, we have some reasons for joy, small everyday joys, which make our lives better. For example, your Lysander skins 😊
Best wishes,
HaFu1939

[Mission_bug]

Hello HaFu1939, thank you very much for the kind words, really appreciated, I do hope you are right about happy endings.

Even though I can only spend small amounts of time on what I do here I consider it therapeutic in many ways as it gives me a chance to create and that is something I always enjoyed, if it also gives you guys some happiness then it helps us all, I used to love checking the forums after a hard day at work to see what was going on, following projects and downloading new stuff helped give me a break from the reality and time to spend on me, hopefully others here gain the same kind of benefit from membership and it lightens their daily burdens health or otherwise.

Over the years many have tried to explain their ailments to me and it is always difficult to fully understand what they were experiencing, you have to endure these things yourself to fully understand just how debilitating chronic pain can be.  Managing it as they describe living with it means most days you are forced to choose what is the most necessary things to do because most movement just increases the intensity of the pain you already have and therefore the duration to a point where it forces you to stop everything and lie down for a while to help the body settle to a more bearable state, the pain does not necessarily need to be intense all the time it is the fact it is continuous, always nagging at you to varying degrees that it drains you to a point where the pain and fatigue cannot be ignored, each day seems to be just a existence rather than any kind of purposeful, meaningful life.

Anyway, I am stuck with what I have, endure it somehow I must while I wait patiently for that happy ending.

Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.

[dona]

Pete
I have never really figured out why life deals good hands to some, not so good to others.  The only thing I do know is that the measure of who we are is largely based on how we choose to play the cards we are dealt. Just reading your last couple of posts tells me that you are playing them very well indeed.  Strength and courage to you!
Don A

[Mission_bug]

Hello Don, thank you very much for your thoughts, really appreciated.

As you point out life is hard to sum up, certain individuals stroll nonchalantly through life with out a care never coming to any harm having lived a full life, others can be thwarted by disease and disability and require care from cradle to grave, most I suppose have our share of the good and bad.

Dealing with ill health is always a challenge, most things in life we are able to cope with when the body allows, we work our way out of problems in many instances, however, once debilitated finding a way forward is hard but try we must, that or give up and die I guess not many options really.

Past experience showed me that drinking your way out of issues is a fools errand and brings much more grief, smoking I gave up thirty or so years ago and recreational drugs were never my thing, so, get up and just face the world is the only option with the help of the prescribed medication that can only provide so much relief.

A old friend used to say "woman up man, you should have seen the struggle my mum had on her own and with kids", I did not have the happiest of upbringings and my own mother found herself in that position so I know what he meant, women as well as many other folk have had to cope with much worse, many will tell you "there is always someone worse off than you", true enough but for each individual it does not seem that way when it is you in pain or suffering.

Anyway, onward we go whatever happens.

Take care and be safe.

Wishing you all the very best, Pete.